Do you know what it's like to dream with your eyes open? Every day you will imagine that you are a princess, that you live in a fairy tale and that your whole life is wonderful? This is how I lived most of my life, dreaming with my eyes open and always denying reality. I guarantee you that I don't suffer from any mental disorder. It's just that my life has been difficult. Whatever happened to me in this life I tried to deny and create another reality. To imagine that everything is actually different and that my life is actually a beautiful one. I allways make plans to get out of this pack and hide in another place to take it from the beginning.
My name is Malvina Callas and I am almost 18 years old. All my life I was the mockery of those in Diamond Mount Pack. I was found in the woods when I was only a few days old. Nobody knows exactly where I come from, but the pack doctor adopted me and raised me like my own child. Ines Callas, my adoptive mother, was everything a child would have wanted but because of me her partner left her. Her decision to adopt me without considering his opinion deeply hurt him, at least that's what I was told by her. Dale Callas holds the position of Beta in Diamond Mount Pack and is not the man you want to upset. He hated me from the first second he met me and made sure that no one in this pack behaved nicely with me. Unfortunately, my mother died as a result of a rouges attack and unfortunately this also happened while she was defending me. From that moment on Dale Callas' only purpose in life was to make my life an ordeal. At the age of 7 I was an orphaned child again, but this time I was also the most hated werewolf being in the pack.
For ten years I have been a slave to everyone in the pack. I was allowed to go to school and I was grateful for this because the teachers always treated me well, but my colleagues constantly ignored or humiliated me. A successful day at school was one in which I was invisible to those around me. After finishing classes every day, I had to clean the pack house.
In the last 8 years I was actually a housekeeper, a cook, a laundress, a gardener absolutely everything that was needed in the pack house. Nobody calls me by name. For the pack, I'm just the ugly omega. Not that I would be ugly and not that I would be omega, because my features are really beautiful, but when you hate someone I think you are no longer able to distinguish reality correctly. My pack hates me and in view of this fact, everything related to me can only be ugly.
But tomorrow is my birthday. I am 18 years old and I will finally meet my wolf and I will be able to transform for the first time. I have felt her presence since I was 16 and I talk to her and we enjoyed each other's presence. We imagine what our life will be like after I turn 18, because tomorrow I will also find out who my mate is, my soul mate, the one who will love me unconditionally and who will help me be happy. Nova, my wolf, has a cheerful spirit and is very wise. Thanks to her, I managed to resist and get up whenever the pack knocked me to the ground.
But from tomorrow things will change.
"Nova, what do you think our partner will look like?" I can't help but wonder my wolf. It's actually the tenth time I've asked her the same thing in the last hour.
"Malvina, at how special you are, trust me, you can only receive a suitable partner. Everything will be fine. The Goddess of the Moon has a special plan for you. ”
"Nova ... I don't know what to say ... but it looks like it's been 18 years late since the plan was implemented."
"Trust me, everything will be fine"
The next morning I opened my eyes and felt full of energy. Although I do not live in the pack house because I am only allowed access to work, I live nearby. I set up a room in the wood shed next to the house. I have an old mattress taken from the garbage, a few old quilts and old clothes from the pack, clothes that are enough for me at the moment. I realize I feel weird. I'm close enough to feel my partner. So my partner is a member of the Diamond Mount pack. I can smell the chocolate and mint flavoure. I feel his smell and it fills my nostrils and suffocate me. He's so close!
I get up and without thinking I run to the pack house. The smell is even more intense. At this moment I am sure that he also felt me nearby. I sniff in the hall of the house and go to the 2nd floor where the smell is much stronger. I can only be shocked when I realize which door I am near. I reach out to knock on the door but I know that what is behind the door will not bring anything good. Without any hope, I let my hand fall and walk away from the room where I know my partner is. He will never accept me. Colton Lancaster is my partner. Colton Lancaster the most wanted man in our pack. The absolute fighter and the scariest man I've ever seen. Colton Lancastar the future Alpha of this pack. Yes, his father is Alpha Blane Lancaster. The man who allowed everyone to humiliated and trampled me, the one who never took a stand for me and did everything in his power to have a faithful Beta with him. Afla Blane never hurt me personally and in his presence no one dared to touch me but he knew very well what Dale Callas is doing and he never took a stand in my favor. He allways closed his eyes.
"Nova..it's a joke" I say in the trembling voice to my wolf "it's impossible; If Colton is my mate, it means that since he turned 18 he has felt me and he knew that we are soul mates. All this time he slept with other women and humiliated me, hit me and knocked me to the ground so many times ... Nova, I can't do this ... "
"Malvina, do what needs to be done. Everything will be fine. Trust me. From beginning to the end I am with you. No matter what happens today, this chapter must begin and end . " Nova tells me. I feel agitated even though she tries to be calm and guide me as usual.
With a trembling hand I knock lightly on the bedroom door. I'm shaking all over. I'm still trying to gather my ideas. What can I tell Colton? Suddenly the door opens and in front of me is displayed in all its splendor a half-naked Colton, dressed only in shorts. I swallow dry.
"What do you want?" he asks me, staring into my eyes.
"Can we talk?" I ask him in an increasingly muffled voice.
"About what?" he asks in a rough voice.
"About us" I say shyly.
" US!!?!?!!? I don't think we have anything to discuss." and he tries to close the door but at that moment without realizing it I reach out and grab his arm. I feel tingling all over my body and I feel like it's getting harder and harder to be around him. I am convinced that he feels the same because I see his eyes start to shine.
He looks me in the eye for a few seconds and then opens the door and motions for me to enter his room.
"I just wanted to ..." I start to say but I can't finish the sentence because as soon as he closed the door Colton rushes at me and kisses me passionately. I feel how he simply devour my mouth. After a few minutes he stops just to breathe and whispers in my ear:
"Do you know how hard it has been for me to control myself in the last year since I found out that you are my mate? Do you now?" and suddenly he starts kissing my neck. I can only moan and enjoy what I feel. For the first time in my life I feel wanted.
Colton left no part of my body untouched. We made love and felt the connection between us begin to strengthen.
When we managed to catch our breath, Colton picked me up and grabbed me by the shoulders and looking me in the eye he smiled sadly and said:
"I, Colton Lancaster, the future Alpha of the Diamond Mountain pack, reject you Malvina Callas as the partner and future Moon of this pack."
I actually felt the air disappear from my hands and suffocate me. I felt the whole sky fall on me and without the strength to stand on my feet I fell to the ground. The pain of rejection is unbearable. I wish I could say something but at this moment I can only cry. Colton looks at me one last time and turns his back on me and start to get dressed himself.
"All this madness must be a joke. It is inadmissible for you to be my mate. You are too weak, too powerless to be luna of this pack. The Moon Goddess I think had a great time making this joke. The last year has been an ordeal. Your presence hurts me and your mere sight infuriates me. I forbid you to talk to anyone about what happened here. People will laugh of me if they find out that you are my mate. Just disappear and stop appearing in front of me! ”
I tightened my clothes and got dressed. I feel the inner pain from rejection tearing me apart.
"Malvina, accept his rejection." I hear Nova say, “Let's finish this chapter. Everything will be fine"
"How can be fine?" I ask crying.
"It will. Just trust me!"
I stood up and with the last trace of dignity left in me I looked him in the eye and said:
"I, Malvina Callas, accept your reje…"
"I told you to disappear!" and suddenly Colton pushed me, causing me to fall and hit my head on the ground.
Tears begin to flow. I also fell blood dripping on my my cheek. I don't even have the right to accept his rejection.
"Nova…" and start crying.
"Everything will be fine, Malvina. Trust me. We will laugh at the end. Colton Lancaster, you don't even know what you're doing ...” Nova told me in pain. What I feel she feels too. Normally she should be angry, wanting to destroy Colton, but I don't understand how she can be so calm. I feel her pain and I feel that she is strong, stronger than I have been all my life. I don't understand how she can be so controlled at the moment. What does Nova know and I don't know why she keeps telling me that everything will be fine?
I get dressed quickly and run away from the room, hiding in the wood shed to cry.
"Nova, I want to leave this pack. I don't think I can live here anymore. I can't see Colton every day after what happened between us. How could he make love to me only to reject me immediately afterwards? Nova, help me, give me the strength to leave here. "
I packed my little luggage and looking for the last time around me and to the house where I should have lived with my mate I ran into the woods to leave this place for good.
Goodbye place of my pain!
