He was still under the mango tree.
I know he'll wait for me because we have something to talk about today. I'm not sure why but, I heard their conversation yesterday.
"Your obviously excited."
"I'm nervous bro!" He looked worried.
"Don't get nervous ... You have to tell her to know her answer."
"Yes.I told her to meet me here today." He smiled.
He breathed heavily several times. He's walking back and forth. The expression on his face is changing from time to time. His forehead curled up , he smiled in the air and close his eyes as he spoke to himself and act like he's praying for something.
If it wasn't for today's situation I might have laughed at him.
Thing I could only do when he's back facing me because I was always quiet and serious when we were together.
His epic moods.. I will never forget..
My girl best friend comes and approaches him . He looks excited. Maybe because he thought I'm coming. He faced her direction while she's panting out of breath running close to him calling his name.She's in a hurry. As soon as it they get closer, she gave him my letter.
My heart is aching because of his cold smile as he recieved the letter. He quickly read what was written there but, immediately the smile on his face that I always hope to be there disappeared. He dropped on his knee on the grass, holding the crumpled letter.
I could read the pity in my best friend's eyes while staring at him. I grabbed my chest from unknown pain. Im holding back my self not to excite where im hiding. I can feel the pain I am leaving with him.
Everything he prepared for this day was wasted because of me. The thing that I avoided and feared..it still gonna happen.
I turned away and left the school that had become a big part of my life. I'll be leaving my friends and the first person I secretly care about, so much!
At times we were together I experienced being annoyed, hurt and most of all happy. Those are the days I secretly treasured but, I should forget.
I know you did everything to, get closer with me, but it can't be. It's already wrong from the first time.
Don't think you were lacking because, to me you're more than enough .
I'm still confused but, I know this is how it should be. I may have reasons but the pain that i've cause you is in measurable . I did everything so I could not hurt you but, I probably couldn't avoid it if you stayed closer to me. I am not numb but, I choose to be cuz you are important to me.
If we cross path one day, you probably won't be hurt because of me. You're happier with the one who love you and if there is one last word I want to leave you now, it's "thank you!"
One more time I looked at him before finally leave.
